randomsnarfle: (Derp)


Wow I haven't done one of these since like... January. HOW ABOUT SOMETHING um. Japan is still Japan. I go home in a little over a month now, but it doesn't really feel real. As homesick as I am, I know the few things I like about being here, I'm going to really miss. And I'll probably go through some weird reverse culture shock when I get back. Hopefully I haven't turned into so much of a recluse that I can't function in groups anymore when I get back, haah. Being around more than 3-4 people feels so stressful.

School stuff is okay. My classes are all really boring and I'm really starting to hate my Japanese class. Like, our last presentation, I was the only person who was able to read the whole thing without staring at my script reading word for word, or talking like I'm announcing for horse races or something like this one girl (seriously, she sounds like she's an auctioneer or something when she talks Japanese, it's so annoying to listen to) AND YET because my little paper that people were supposed to follow along to wasn't in the exact same format as everyone else, I got scolded in front of the class.

UHM I THOUGHT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE LEARNING THE LANGUAGE HERE, WHO CARES IF I DIDN'T SEPARATE AND TITLE EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING...? The papers were bullshit anyway; every student had to print 22 copies, and some had more than one page! Those poor trees...

Outside of school... lol I don't do anything. I have to be really careful with money, since I'd like to have some left over after I get back for until school starts again. If I go anywhere, I spend money, so... :'D I think I'll just be a super tourist for the last week I'm here to make up for it, and go see everything one last time.

And on a little note healthwise... eh. I keep getting sick here, but I think that's more because of mental stress than actually being sick. This past week I've been having anxiety issues that make my heart feel funny and make it hard to breathe whenever I lay down, and that's been a lot of fun... I think I need to take a break from things for awhile, but I'm not sure where to take a break or how.

And of course, RP wise, which is like... most of my life these days. I am a very exciting person.

Honestly, I feel like I need to take a break from Luceti for a bit. Not the drop-kind of break, but like... big hiatus break. And maybe a drop for the character I've been struggling with (sob, Tanuma). The only thing holding him in place now is knowing that all my threads are going to be sad for awhile if I only stick with Ion; since I've been so horrible to him, he's pretty much just a ball of sad right now. And honestly, there's a part of me that kind of wants to hold off on working to make things better for him when I know next month will have some sad plots too.

Which I don't mind! But... I need a happy outlet when I'm over here in a bad mood all the time too. :'D

And that's why I'm finally taking the jump and doing this.

I've been wanting to get back into Smash for like... ever. I always waffled over it because of various reasons and things coming up...

But man, I've totally fallen in love with the game Ib. I loved Yume Nikki and .flow, but the one thing I always wanted to see was a storyline version of that kind of gameplay. Of just... creepy and unsettling things in a horror setting. And since I started playing not expecting to get SUDDENLY PARTY MEMBER, I think that made me love Garry even more. :'D And, aside from the fact that Ib as a canon wouldn't be appable in Luceti, I think I'd like him in a setting like Smash more. I'm kind of worried I might be stepping on someone's toes, but... I didn't see any other reserves or apps up, so I think it's okay... we'll see...

...anyway I should sleep now, gotta be up in 6 hours. /flies
randomsnarfle: (You are this gay.)
Okay, tried to start this entry about 8 times before I gave up so I'm just keeping it super short.

I'm on hiatus because I really need a break from in-game rp. When I start feeling nauseous and uncomfortable whenever I sit down at my computer, I know I gotta step back a bit. I don't want to be one of those professional-role-players whose whole life revolves around one hobby. I don't mind being a professional-nerd, of course, but when I limit myself to one thing, I stop doing the things I really love doing and then I stop having fun. And I've always told myself I'd stop rping when I stopped having fun. That's my philosophy with hobbies like this. 
I'm still having fun, of course, but there's a point when "fun" turns into "work" and I get frustrated. It doesn't affect how active I am until RL starts getting involved (which it has been but I'm not going into that) but it does affect how much fun I'm having. 

I hope this break will give me a chance to devote some time to other things. I still have to clean my room out (even if I risk awakening the spider king by moving stuff around). I still want to cut my hair (even though I look terrible with short hair, but once I get the idea in my head, it doesn't leave until I do it). I still want to just go out and actually do things this summer. And I still have to get a job... though I'm still kind of ugh about that, since by the time I get one, I'll probably only be working for like a month. Hnn. 

Also my new icon is fabulous. 

randomsnarfle: (You are this gay.)

In other news, I have no other news. School is lame and boring and I want it to end. The prospect of having to work at JCPenney again this summer has got me so stressed, I'm having nightmares about it. I'm finally feeling better today after being sick since the last day of Sakuracon.

I have very little motivation to do anything lately so I've just kind of been floating. I think I wasted a year's worth of motivation on finishing my Ion cosplay, ngl. The lack of motivation is also why I haven't really posted anything here in awhile.

I'M NOT DITCHING LJ FOR PLURK, I SWEAR. Plurk is just quicker when I feel those little bursts of motivation to do memes and stuff. LJ takes more motivation, which I don't have as much of right now, which is why this whole journal probably sounds very blaaaaaaah compared to how I usually am.

BUT YEAH PLURK. I like it. Got to know a bunch of people in Luceti I might have never talked to outside of tag subject lines otherwise, which is pretty awesome. Also makes a great time waster when I have no motivation to do things like... you know, right now. |D

FEEL FREE TO CREEPER STALK. I won't lock it unless stuff goes down or something, so you don't have to get an account to follow me. Although it'd kinda boring just standing on the sidelines reading conversations... xD;
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my thread

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The How's My Driving? Meme
Here's hoping the anonymous person who left me crit me in public on rpanoncomm goes here instead. Less embarrassing, ffffff.

Well, I'm now COMPLETELY done with school for the quarter, but the stress won't really leave until after Saturday. I get to work the Saturday before Christmas, oh lucky meeee sob. If my schedule had been reversed, I wouldn't have had to work over break at all, because my Saturday would have fallen on Christmas, when they're closed. Instead I work tomorrow and New Years Day.

On one hand, I need the money. On the other hand, having to leave 3 hours early because of the bus system... :| If the job wasn't so convenient for school, I'd start looking for something else. And okay, I like the clothes discount a lot because I'm such a fashion whore.

ANYWAY. I've decided for sure to bring the Count to Luceti! I still need to hunt down all my mom's manga for some more canon review. I've also re-watched most of the anime at this point, but that's more just to grab screen-caps of the few times the Count appears (and an excuse to watch the series again because it's awesome). I wish they had made a second season or something so they could've included him more!

I feel like such a creep writing his app though, since half of the Count's personality amounts to "sexual harassment of Tsuzuki". :|;; THIS IS THE KIND OF CHARACTER I'MMA PLAY NOW YOU GUYS. Him and Ion and a Lineface. Something is not matching up. I love it. B) Also, prepare for much trolling for Fourth Wall on Saturday night and some on Sunday! I'll probably be made to clean the house up on Sunday, so I won't get to troll as much as I'd like. Sobbu. 

Not much else to say. I should go do something!
randomsnarfle: (SHOUJO SPARKLES)

And then I blinded everyone.

A day ahead of schedule, too! It only took like 8 hours, but such is life. :|b That's one less thing to stress over, though! Time to go make a Cheyenne post derp derp derp...

Now I just have my Japanese Oral Interview on Friday, Japanese Final on Saturday, bringing crap home for Winter Break on Sunday, packing everything I own on Monday, revising an English essay on Tuesday, Japanese History Final on Wednesday, and moving out of my dorm on Thursday.

...WOW. Surprisingly, the finals aren't stressing me out so much. I practically got a 4.0 on the last Japanese History final, and the Japanese language one is multiple choice. The essay revision is still up in the air, because I got too high of a grade on the first essay to find things to revise, SO I need to wait for second essay to come back (what kind of problem is this even, what the hell). Bringing crap home is going to be the biggest pain ever because I don't really have a suitcase up here, so... tempted to just wait on that until Dad comes up to help me move.

OH AND MOVING. That will be a joy. I'm hoping most of the roommates will be gone because it's towards the end of finals week. Oh, and that it isn't raining, but this is Seattle. That's like hoping Antarctica isn't too cold. On the plus side, if I don't want to unpack right away, but still want to unpack before school starts again, the dorm I'm moving to is the only one that doesn't close for Winter Break. B) SWEET.


10 Days - THE END OF A MEME )
randomsnarfle: (Piiiii Piiiii Piiiii Piiiii)
I AM INCAPABLE OF MEMEING ON TIME. So I'm just going to combine two days for this one. THEN I'LL BE CAUGHT UP. OR SOMETHING. Plus, less friend list spam. : D Everybody wins!


OH GOD IT IS 4 AM. ALMOST 5 AM. I need to stop doing this stay-up-until-the-sun-rises thing. I have an essay to finish tomorrow and all kinds of other fun stuff to do. I probably should have made a hiatus post before Thanksgiving because I have been so... not there when it comes to tags these past few days. Kind of a moot point now, but hey, I'll be back up to speed by Monday!

Maybe Tuesday.

Actually, make that Wednesday.

...er, Thursday might be better, really...

.../brb hiatus post.
randomsnarfle: (Nyoro~n...)
Hey, what good timing, I have this meme to do right after a friending meme! : D HI GUYS! Let's just pretend this was posted before midnight so it's still day two...

Meme: Day 2 )

THAT'S THE END aw man tomorrow is going to be cheesey. SORRY FOR SOME MUCH SPAM RIGHT OFF THE BAT! Assuming I actually manage to stick with this meme, this will end up being the most I've posted at any epriod of time... ever. TEN POSTS TEN DAYSSSS.

I still have an essay and a presentation due by Monday, and study abroad forms to finish. What is procrastination. :|

Oh, and working Black Friday at JCPenney is scary and I don't ever want to do that every every again. SO. MANY. CLOTHES...!!

And now I need to sleep before I pass out on the keyboard!
randomsnarfle: (Nyoro~n...)
SO. I have decided that my anime art is not animu enough to my liking. Don't know what this means? Neither do I. But I feel like there is always something missing in a lot of my pictures! So, I am starting my own little challenge that I have given a silly name and may not even follow through with but HEY. THIS IS AN ART DUMP.

FIRST, A DISCLAIMER: THESE ARE NOT ORIGINAL PIECES. All of the pictures here are the result of me looking at a picture on the computer and attempting to recreate it. I did not trace anything, but I know some people are still iffy about eye-tracing... SO. YEAH. Either way, this is my personal journal, so suck it. :|

The URLs for the original pictures are in the image, but if you're lazy, most of the art I'm using for this is by this artist.

Now enjoy some moe.

...and that's it! All five of these were drawn in about two hours and each one (save the last one) was drawn without pause or distraction, save for in between pieces. They were pretty fun! I'm hoping I can keep this up for a little while. I really want to get better, and this makes great practice for expressions!


IN OTHER NEWS. Epic plotness is going down over at Luceti. I haven't been able to tag around [livejournal.com profile] mmmfilletofsoul as much as I would like, but considering she's generally the easier of the two to write, I think this is a good chance for me to have [livejournal.com profile] soreplaceable out more. Plus, he's totally being the hero and saving Anise for once. :|b DELICIOUS DEVELOPMENT IS DELICIOUS.

OH and for, what ,the one person on my FList from Luceti (HI MARBLES) I am planning a gigantic art dump in the Fans community sometime in the near future. I am already piecing it together and it shall be GLORIOUS.



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